Why do I believe I can create true happiness?
Why do I believe I am capable of producing supernatural joy?
Why do I think I can make another person love me?
Why do I think I am capable of loving God and others without first loving myself?
Why do I desire the company of others above the presence of God?
What is wrong wrong with me?
I must remind myself that God desires my praise above my sacrifice. I must remind myself that God desires my heart above my works of righteousness. I must remind myself that God desires me above anything I have to offer him.
God doesn't need me. He doesn't need anything I have to offer. He desires me! He desires my company.
He desires you!
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I think that we think all of those things because we are stubborn and prideful. We think that WE can create those things on our own without our Parents help, like a 2 year old who thinks he can dress himself but puts his feet into the armholes and his arms into the pants. God has made us competent and able people who can do lots of things, but we should not take that to assume that we can create the matters of the heart. Those are God's domain and our best efforts will cause us either to screw up royally or at the very least come to worship those things that we think we created (love, peace, joy, etc.) when we should be loving our Father God Who created us.
Aren't you glad, Theo, that God hasn't given up on us? I think about that almost everyday......I'm so glad He hasn't just thought to Himself that He should just get rid of me and start all over again. I'm so glad that He made me to worship Him above all things so that when I begin to worship something else I will feel empty. It keeps me on track, amen?
Like you, I am SO glad God hasn't given up on me! I am SO glad my family did not give up on me when I was trying (without God's help) to get my act together. I glad they stuck with me as I worked through all my "issues" and I'm glad they are with me today to hold me accountable when I go back and start trusting in flesh again, instead of God.
We need God's Spirit living in us to constantly reassure us God is near and God is sufficient. Without him, I can do nothing! With him, all things are possible to those who believe that he is and that he is a rewarder of those who diligently seek him!
Thanks for the reminder! I need you guys also to hold me accountable.
When I remember to put "less value" to me and put "all value" to God - my life blossoms. It seems so easy - yet it is the hardest thing I do within each day. I fight being "valued less" with all my human being - yet when I remember how much My Father values me - I think how silly I am to hold on to man's opinion - How foolish I am to value anything but My Fathers opinion, because He loves me more than I love myself. And to be honest - that MUST be a whole lot - because I love myself "mucho" and as He finishes me the "creation" my "furnise firings" are purging this obsession and coloring more humility into me. Pray that I continue to remember these values.
Bless the mercy and grace of God to continue to mold and fire my "pot" because I know when I am with Him in the end - I am going to be a beautiful piece of work!
It is people, like YOU, that encourage me to be the best I can be. I find that because of your wisdom and presence in my life - that I can and strive to be accountable and therefor more pleasing to God. I know many people, most of whom I am related to, that want me to be different and not so "goodie to-shoes" as they call it. But God has told me thru prayers to spend less time with them and be more diligent in keeping You and other I cherish - close at hand.
I thank you for always being there for me - and the love and encouragement you give me daily - even thought I have never met you - You are a joy to my life and a compliment to my being. I love you, my brother in Christ, and so look forward to "turning in" to your words of wisdom each time I "blog" you into my life. God just keeps blessing me - Ain't it so - ain't it so.
Your comment: Keep on preaching the word! I've got your back! So, keep covering mine!
- DITTO, my Brother - Ditto